Lucifer

Another day, another character introduction.

Today marks the first day of my 30-day cleanse....yes, I am serious.... of Lucifer. Zero contact. No IM, email, Facebook, text, phone calls, drive-bys, pop-ups, nada. zero.zilch. and I've made it 9pm, so that has got to count for something.
We all have something. French Fries, Chocolate Ice Cream, Expensive Shoes, Cold Beer, Shots of Whiskey, Cigarettes, a vice. Lucifer is mine. Lucifer is like a bad drug.....the high is amazing, and while you are soaring the view is breathtaking. . . BUT you crash, and you burn. Every. Single. Time.

History:
Lucifer and I have been friends(first mistake)and coworkers(second mistake) for many years. For several years we would make little sly comments  and do the casual flirty workplace BS you see on some dried up sitcom, and one day it all changed. He cornered me, and he kissed me. The ass kissed me at work,and well the last year and half are the results thereof.

The difference is I knew. I knew the reputation that preceded him. I knew the life he lived....and I walked right into his trap none-the-less...Hell, who am I kidding, I lifted the trap door and sat my happy ass down on my own. The attraction I had for him was the bait and it was easily taken. If I could paint the picture of what I wanted my husband to look like, how I wanted him to dress, smell, carry himself, I would have to do no less than take a portrait of Lucifer.

Now it is important that I state we were never in a relationship....looking back at times I think we pretended to be, but truth be told it was all a really bad act that Siskel and Ebert wouldn't even take the time to review.
I feel alot of things when I think about Lucifer, used and betrayed are at the top of the list,  and so
 we come full circle to the 30 day cleanse.....I believe that sometimes when there is something that is holding you back, or harming you in any way you have to purge yourself completely of the problem, and while I believe it is quite possible that Heroin would be easier to give up than Lucifer, it must be done none the less.

The old cliche' states, "Never make someone a priority in your life when you are merely an option in theirs."
SO......Mission : Free-yourself-of-a-selfish-arrogant-asshole-who-couldn't-give-a-rat's-ass-about-you-unless-he-needs-you-for-something : LAUNCHED  (I'm not bitter at all btw)  ;-)