Defense Mechanism

I have a natural instinct. Some would call it a defense mechanism.  I feel myself getting close to someone and I begin stacking bricks....little by little I nit pick until I push away whoever that person is further and further away.

So this time I decided to do things a little different. I felt it happening...I felt the emotions closing in on New York...and almost instantly I felt the walls going up. I began  to question little things, and although they may have been merited in some way, I found very quickly that I was going to push this man away...so this time I picked up the phone. I called New York and I put it all on the table.

I shared my secret. my routine if you may. I told New York what I was doing and I asked him to stop me. I asked him to remind me that he was not the man that broke my heart. because for once, I felt like maybe, just maybe, this one could be worth the chance.

"I hope that you see right through my walls. I hope that you catch me, cause I'm already falling...You put your arms around me and I'm home."